Watch our Oct. 28 conversation with Harley Morman and Lindsey Sharman. ‘Harley Morman: Let’s Do the Time Warp Again’ is presented by the RBC New Works Gallery. #AGAlive is made possible by EPCOR and Canada Council for the Arts.Watch our Oct. 28 conversation with Harley Morman and Lindsey Sharman. ‘Harley Morman: Let’s Do the Time Warp Again’ is presented by the RBC New Works Gallery. #AGAlive is made possible by EPCOR and Canada Council for the Arts. …
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What Is Plastic Actually Made of
What Is Plastic Actually Made of
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What Is Plastic Actually Made of
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Photography’s Influence on Knowing the Self
Photography’s Influence on Knowing the Self
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Photography’s Influence on Knowing the Self
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hello everyone hi harley hi um
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so i’m lindsay sharman i am the curator of the art gallery of alberta i’m very
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happy to be uh joined with harley mormon here as we’re about to go on a tour of
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his new exhibition let’s do the time warp again uh and then we’ll have a bit of a little conversation with him
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afterwards um harley’s exhibition is up right now at the art gallery of alberta and will be up until the end of
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january um the aga and i are situated on 2d6
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territory we are also in edmonton the traditional land of diverse
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indigenous peoples including cree blackfoot metis nicotisou iroquois dene
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inuit and ochipway solto anishinabe i’d also like to acknowledge all of the
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indigenous inuit and metis people who make their homes on territories that intersect the current borders of alberta
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treaty six is also where i first met harley where we were both studying at the university
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of saskatchewan harley is now um on treaty 7. um harley
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is trans and has lived with multiple sclerosis for over a decade while earning a ba in sociology from the
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university of saskatchewan he worked in communications with various queer and cultural
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nonprofits in 2016 he received an mfa from the university of lethbridge where
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he is currently working towards a phd in cultural social and political thought
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and as of monday he is officially a phd candidate so huge congratulations on
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that harley mormon’s visual work takes a playful approach to examining the social
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relations between art artists and institutions and that’s exactly what we’ll do today
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so we have a tour for you um this evening so you’ll see harley and i uh in
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the exhibition talking about uh the work then harley and i will we’ll talk together uh a bit more about the show
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and the themes in the exhibition um so before we get into it um i’d like to
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thank uh epcor and the canada council for their support our online programming is brought to you
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because of the generous support of the epcor hort heart and soul fund and thank
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you also to canada council harley’s exhibition is also in the rbc
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gallery at the aga and was sponsored by rbc thank you to them for their ongoing
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support of artists um so your way of interacting with
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harley and i this evening is through the chat um
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we will take your questions at the end but you don’t need to wait that long to ask them if you have any questions at
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all at any time uh you can pop them in the chat at any time so um yeah without further ado here is our
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tour and then harley and i will be back for questions
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right i’m very excited to be in harley mormon’s exhibition let’s do the time
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warp again with harley to be able to kind of show you around
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and allow everybody to to see the really wonderful works that are in this exhibition and how they
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really all come together in this wonderful space
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so the exhibition takes on a lot of pretty big themes
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the exhibition is about time it’s about queerness it’s about being
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trans it’s about binaries it’s about breaking down
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binaries um it’s about nostalgia
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so there’s really a lot of kind of big ideas sort of swirling around this
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exhibition so just to start us out um harley’s going to talk to us about the first case
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that you see in the exhibition so this case is called mirage
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and mirage is actually the name of the the kind of optical illusion toy in the
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center that looks like a big black ufo um and it’s something that i remember from
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my parents house as being something that i was never allowed to touch because it uh i think was very expensive
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but what it does it’s a a pair of concave mirrors uh and inside
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if you place an object it looks like it’s floating on top of the surface
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so i don’t depending on what angle you’re shooting it from it might look like there’s a
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rainbow floating on there so in this case there are also a whole bunch of erasers
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and mirrors and all the erasers are from my childhood eraser collection
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i i started amassing erasers when i was in probably grade one um
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and most of the erasers that are in this show were actually given to me by my mom
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as bribes basically to to to do school work uh and not complain
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about it and to and to like do well on schoolwork essentially um so
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we made a deal that whenever i got a 100 on an assignment she would give me like
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a little sticker or a tiny sticker or for every number i would like
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she gamified it basically um and so all of these uh these erasers
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were are from like the the mid to late 1980s um and i kept them
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i’m a keeper right so from mirage i’d like to bring
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us to this scoreboard um that’s behind me here one of the things um
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that harley a couple of times has mentioned in our conversations in
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putting together this exhibition is the sense of competitiveness
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and so i think there’s something interesting that um maybe uh harley’s
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mom was sort of trying to capitalize on in in um you know the eraser bribes um
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and you know he’s described several times that you know he has this kind of like internal competitive miss uh and
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you know not really for anything in particular but perhaps with one’s own um achievement or success or things like
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that um and so i think that the scoreboard um is super interesting it’s a very
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bizarre scoreboard we’re not quite sure what it’s tracking and so harley maybe
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you could just share with us a little bit about this work so um this work is called scorekeeper and
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really it was it was meant to uh on purpose be extremely ambiguous
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so you notice um in the reflection that’s being shot right now um you can
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see me and the text on the scoreboard is right side is
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is facing the right side you can read it and the clock looks relatively normal um
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looking at it from the the right direction you’ll notice that everything on the scoreboard including the clock is
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backwards so the clock runs backwards uh and the numbers on the scoreboard are
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lenticular and switch as you direct your uh vision
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toward one year or another they kind of gradually shift between zero and one
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and i liked the idea that it would be extremely ambiguous
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and kind of overtly decorative um so
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um scoreboards usually um keep track of sports but there aren’t very many sports
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or sporty things in this exhibition in fact i am really uh the world’s almost the world’s most unsporty person
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as i was in junior high but i loved the idea of something very visible kind of
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looming over uh you as you moved through the gallery um and looked at things um
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and as for what it’s tracking um it could be tracking
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you um competing against yourself or against
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some sort of imaginary other or anything at all
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or nothing
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so one of the things that i think is particularly interesting or clever in harley’s work
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and in this entire exhibition is that he’s offering us several
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binaries literal like computer binary zeros and ones
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to completely absurd um and so he he sets up these binaries just to kind of
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dissolve them and break them down or kind of highlight their ridiculousness
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and so there’s a lot um in this show
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stickers and erasers are set up as a as a binary young and old
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and so one of the sort of main features and kind of the main works in
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this exhibition are this series of grade school portraits that harley has
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made of more institutional school portraits that he had taken from
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grade 5 to grade 12 with some deviation and then they are paired in lenticulars
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with um contemporary portraits of himself and so when you’re walking
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around them they are kind of blurring and blending back and forth between
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harley now and his younger self and so harley did you want to maybe talk
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press through this work what it means for you and and what you’re trying to convey here
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so like lindsay said in all these works contemporary portraits of me
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taken taken last january but by a photographer in lethbridge angeline simon
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are just opposed against uh institutional portraits that were taken
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in school um in in all but two important cases so
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going from grade five to grade 12 uh you can well you number one you can gradually
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see um what i looked like uh getting older and you can see me like
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through my my awkward like acne-filled teen years and into
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a slightly more confident but still really awkward uh like older teenager um
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and what i was thinking of because all of the contemporary photos were taken at
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the same time uh and they’re layered in different ways uh on the photo like with their their
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paired photos um some of the in some of them uh i’m
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i’m obviously or in some of the photos it it looks as though i’m interacting in some way with
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my younger self um maybe standing side by side or looking at
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in other in other photos um uh our faces are almost exactly paired so
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it’s almost it’s difficult to tell which feature is coming from which portrait uh and for example in the grade five
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portrait it really looks like there’s there’s a young young girl with some sort of amazing
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beard um and i i love it and that like they change and different features
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become visible but it’s quite difficult in the ones where my face is overlaid
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to pick out exactly what is coming from which portrait
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when i was doing this work i was really thinking of um
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okay well it’s kind of a thing um for people when they
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like when they’re thinking about formally transitioning to think a lot about uh like former incarnations or
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versions of themselves even if they don’t think about it in that terms like thinking about um
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their childhood it’s almost a cultural demand that we make of trans people to think about um and like reconcile
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themselves with um anything that might have been signs or trends
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um like or that somehow like proves that they’re
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they really are trans um that’s clearly ridiculous but i did it anyway it’s a
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bit of a stereotype and i’m happy to fall into it um but as i as i went
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through my enormous archive uh of not only erasers and stickers but paperwork
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um from my childhood um and i looked at all these photos and i
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thought like these photos all very much still look like me um and they
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feel kind of like me although i look very different and i noticed that um
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a lot of a lot of the the clothing that i was wearing would still be very much what i
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would pick now my cell really hasn’t changed that much since grade eight i’m unfortunately i don’t know if that’s
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terrible anyway um so when i was pairing them uh i tried to kind of match
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uh the younger institutional portraits um in terms of uh
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in terms of color uh and j uh and general affect
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um like the kind of expression i was making or the kind of
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the kind of thing that i remember feeling um so one of the one of the works that i
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love to tell the story of because it was kind of important in my thinking about this um is actually the story uh about
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grade 11. um because grade 11 was one of the two years that i did not have a
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school portrait taken uh but i do have a portrait that was taken on the day um
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so uh in grade 11 i was kind of a surly kid
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and i wore to school on purpose i dressed up for portrait day
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a blue t-shirt that said this is what a feminist looks like and i put a rainbow button on my pants
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uh and a few other pieces of drainable jewelry and i dyed my hair purple with kool-aid
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it was diet kool-aid that was not a good idea um and i thought okay i’m ready to have my
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picture taken but when i got to school the photographer did not think i looked
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looked presentable enough to have my picture taken and so they declined and told me to come
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back later but i wasn’t able to uh
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and so when i got home uh i drove home and it totally incensed uh
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and in in a fit of like huffiness uh made my mom take my
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portrait uh on this on the day on picture day uh sort of standing in front of my car
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looking upset um and i’ve
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i kept it because it is in fact a record of what i looked like and felt like a
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lot in grade 11. um and so i when i recreated uh or
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i sort of recreated the shot i’m standing on a track beside my tricycle which is
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the equivalent the modern equivalent of my car um
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so in grade 12 the portrait is also a little bit different um in grade 12 where i’m from
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in minnesota it’s um traditional for all high school seniors to have their portrait taken not at school
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but to seek out an independent photographer and go for a photo shoot um
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and these are the photos that are used in the yearbook um so instead of like
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wearing a gown with the rose or the any other local convention um everyone
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has these these portraits that are meant intended to ideally um reflect the personality of
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the person somehow and i was really owly about having to do this photo shoot because i
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i hated the way i looked and i didn’t like the idea of being shot in weird soft focus the way so many portraits of
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other girls in my class were being were being done but eventually i kind of negotiated
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something with my parents uh and the photographer um that i felt reasonably good at uh so here um
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you see me twice um kind of reclining uh on my arm
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uh and in in grade 12 uh it was fall and
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i’m wearing a green sweater uh and you can see i’m wearing a little rainbow necklace kind of similarly to grade 11.
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um yeah it was it was my tiny basically
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invisible uh way of trying to assert myself
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so one of the things that i think is really interesting with the school portraits and this entire exhibition
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is that it’s kind of this practice of knowing oneself
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and there is a certain element of um care for oneself
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at all ages um throughout your life sort of you know looking back to high school and kind of
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giving giving care to those younger versions of yourself but this idea of um
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[Music] do we change how we change uh and kind of those sort of larger
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questions that i think are really interesting to think about when looking at this exhibition um and sort of how we
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change over time um and so time is definitely showing up
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a lot and on this entire wall um there are all of these different um
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clocks and mirrors and so maybe you could just share with us a
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little bit about the clocks your interest in time and kind of what
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this wall is all about okay well
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uh in contrast to uh the school portraits which are on the
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the wall across from us that are very much about simultaneously
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holding the past and present at the same time and trying to reconcile
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those two um the clocks on this wall um they’re quite playful uh and
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some of them don’t really know what they’re doing um so the tops on this wall uh are all
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based more or less on stickers that i received um uh
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like from school so in elementary school the stickers um are mostly based on uh
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stickers that that um are were either given as kind of reward stickers or
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stickers that were that were somehow institutional um so super student right
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here uh is from a set of stickers that came was given out as part of the scholastic
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book fair so at the center of this wall um there
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is this large four and a half foot in diameter clock with
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lenticulars um at uh the the points the the 12 the three the six
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and the nine uh and all this all the the lenticulars
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on this wall uh they are based on stickers um but also their eyes um
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so that the eyes of someone and something is is watching
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you um so all this work was made during a pandemic
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and it was incredibly influential on everything in the show um so
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when i was thinking about time uh and thinking about how it felt like
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not only was i going through um kind of in a time where of emotional kind of
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repeating and continually revisiting that you can kind of see
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in the portrait series that’s on the opposite wall but at the same time it felt like
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i was really kind of stuck um uh for me it definitely felt like
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because there weren’t the holidays or the the different days that one can use to mark
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time uh they just weren’t happening and i live by myself so
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it was like the passing of a day or an hour um
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got muddled and my sense of time uh started to become
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just just influenced and different than it normally would be um
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and so um in the show um
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clocks um are doing a lot of kind of uh both conceptual and
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physical work um everything on this wall um is the the
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end result of kind of a playful experimentation with uh
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with the material material i was working with so with with stickers and erasers but also with the clock motors and i
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loved the idea of um using what was what is an actually actually a quite simple
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motor um to and like on a domestic scale uh
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kind of as a craft material um because as you can see um all these works are
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clearly handmade um they are not um they’re not uh
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they weren’t uh professionally made um they’re not institutional um they’re
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very provisional they’re kind of um like glue gun together and made out of the stuff that you would that one
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would or might have in their house already um
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and in that it’s fair to mention that lenticulars aren’t generally a
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material that people that individuals work with
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lenticulars uh get used a lot for all kinds of things but generally for uh
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by institutions uh for things like um
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for things like children’s toys and a lot of novelties are produced with lenticular film
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but they’re not generally something that um that individuals would produce because
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the tolerances are so small and that
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in making them um yeah it’s just really difficult to get
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correct so hence the the working the working with those mistakes is part of
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working working with the the mistakes in alignment um
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is a big part of uh the portrait series and also um
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the the series and on this wall so i was i was playing around
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with uh what what i could do with lenticulars uh and what
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what i could come up with um these works are um have been very process based um and
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that’s a different way of working for me uh a lot of things about the show are um
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both playful and just silly um and i think never change is one
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of them um i like the the phrase never change because um
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it reminds me of something well that people actually did right in my yearbook um
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when i was in grade 1 grade 11 and 12. uh and it seems like the kind of um
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extremely surfacy um
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surface level thing to say that seems supportive but it’s actually like kind of a curse um
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because who wouldn’t want to change throughout their life um
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and i think i kind of get the sentiment behind it but at the same time it’s
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both very good and very bad um so um two things in the show
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are called never change um uh the
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i i use the the phrase never change to refer it to the portraits um series as a
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group and clearly they change they change all over they can’t stop um
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and also um this phrase um looks like a lenticular but doesn’t
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actually change at all um it doesn’t move it there’s no um
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there’s no dual image behind it and it does not have the capacity to change
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so there are a lot of playful um sort of elements uh and and
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jokes and and some things that are quite uh kind of whimsical in the show that harley’s put in um one of the things
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that i wanted to draw um attention to was this little interventions that that
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harley has done throughout the show there are these kind of little cut out mirrored bits throughout the show um
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but this one that kind of draws attention to the labels and sort of like points of
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finger to the kind of like infrastructure of exhibitions i think is uh particularly uh
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clever and and funny for for me and it’s also mirrored
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there are lots of mirrored elements and so maybe harley just to kind of finish us off
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we’ll share a little bit about his use of mirrors
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so around the space they’re all uh all sorts of uh small um plexiglas
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mirrors um and i love mirrors for lots of reasons um they add sparkliness
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and i love the way they kind of erratically can reflect light um uh but also
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i like the the idea that they’re inviting you to look into them um and when you look at a mirror
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um you’re seeing yourself um and the things that are behind you um
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like with scorekeeper um you can see what’s behind you um and
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i’m really using mirrors as a metaphor for the retrospective glance
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hi harley hello not again
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um yeah it was so nice to be
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back in the show with you that was really great i loved that review filmed that
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i’ve been looking at the chat and i feel really excited about some of the things that are coming up in the chat
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too so i really hope people ask questions and that we can get around to talking to talking about some of them
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yeah we need to talk about how you’re dorian gray possibly
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i hope that like like pops in on that one as well
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um yeah so i wanted to to kind of start us off by maybe going back to
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the scoreboard piece um called scorekeeper
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um and yeah maybe you could uh maybe expand a little bit on maybe
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what you think it’s tracking or or recording or maybe you’ve decided in the meantime that it’s it’s not doing
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anything right i would rather not oh yeah i did consider i thought at the time like i didn’t know how much i
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wanted to say about it but i want to say a lot yeah for this audience i think i think seeing more is exactly what i
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should do um so in the exhibition i think the scoreboard is really um serving a bunch of purposes um
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well number one it’s the first thing yeah there it is um it’s the first thing that people see when they come into the
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gallery because it’s right across um across from the main doors so they enter and immediately you can see everything
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from the front doors but um the scoreboard and the mirrors are right in front of you um
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and it’s it’s general shape and the layout of it um with the clock in the center and the the dark numbers on the
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bottom sides um all right or make it instantly recognizable as uh the type of object that it is like
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even though the the top um is like what is happening um
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like because it has a clock in the middle i think it reads as a scoreboard and it’s high um and in that
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um it’s recognizableness as a category of object um it’s kind of like a giant
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moving metaphor for the the threat of and promise of social judgment and the
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need to compete um that kind of um when we think or when i think about
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um my younger self like certainly um one is subject to that like
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hypers that like hyper surveillance um from not only institutions but also
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um by each other and ourselves it’s just like the the looking and the being
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looked at is coming from all directions and like when you’re 13 you can just feel it so intensely
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um so um yeah i think i think the idea i was just
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thinking now um because the the title of the work is score keeper um and so it kind of like
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anthropomorphizes this object a little bit and so yeah when you’re talking about this kind of
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like hyper surveillance yeah i think it’s really interesting that you kind of have this thing sort of
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looming over you yes i know but like also it is it’s kind
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of um institutional like digital scoreboard typically um
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really big and very expensive um like fixtures in in high schools at least
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where i was from i don’t know if it’s still the case that you would have to like raise money for ages and like their purchase
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would be tied to usually i don’t know some sort of major drink corporation um but yes um this one is
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plainly homemade um uh there’s a there’s kind of uh it has some of the same plastic
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objects um sort of remnants um gendered remnants of uh plastic tools and curlers
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and beads and uh electrical components uh and all sorts of little
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little junky crap like this rainbow
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objects above that’s what yeah so um so it’s clearly been homemade by
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someone um but like why who what kind of a person would make something like this um
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yeah and because it’s a reverse and meant to be viewed essentially in a mirror um
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while your back is turned i like the idea that it looks over your shoulders so i feel
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like it’s in a way both like charismatic and it’s the surface
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level of being very colorful and very friendly um but also it’s a little bit paranoid and
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threatening at the same time and that’s i think that is kind of one of the dualisms that i may be playing with i i
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don’t know how because the exhibition is very colorful and friendly and i want it
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to be that way i want people um to to like the exhibition but i want people
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who are looking a little bit deeper to um really notice that something seems kind
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of off about it um like for example what sorry i didn’t mean to interrupt go
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ahead i was just gonna say um even from the front because of the symmetry of it
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um like in the words home and the way and the typography that they use it doesn’t
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doesn’t necessarily immediately read as being backwards but when you look a little bit closer um you can you can
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tell that the clock is actually running backwards yeah there’s yeah because it when we were installing
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we were talking a lot about yahweh yeah exactly
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like what team is that again um so stacy’s saying um
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and i think it’s kind of interesting related to um the scoreboard that you’re describing as
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kind of like hyper surveillance um and something that’s like constantly watching you and then thinking also
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about um your school portraits where you’re kind of like you know you mentioned that you always had these kind
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of like little maybe hidden but maybe not so hidden like rainbows in what you’re wearing and so so stacy is saying
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you know when you are terrified of being discovered uh and want nothing else but to be
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discovered yeah that that is that is really good um and that’s
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okay i okay i was actually technically when um
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i was wearing the little rainbows in grade 11 in grade 12. i was technically out um and if or if there are any
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younger people watching this video they’re gonna say like you only came out in like grade 10 and i would be like
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yeah but we’re talking 2000 like okay i guess that was 1994. um and i was
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the only gay person that i knew um at the time so
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um there weren’t a lot of options for um
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like role models or ways to think about it that were
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actually out um like extreme extreme um
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like covert signaling was my option yeah
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so amanda is asking do you suppose most people assume home is their team
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that is that is really good i think when i was making it i
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did assume that home was the team of the viewer
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but there’s no reason that it necessarily should be oh that’s a really interesting question
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i would love to hear what what other people like would think about that
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that isn’t something i’ve i have thought about at all
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something something more to consider yeah that is really exciting to me when people bring up things that like see
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things that i haven’t noticed but see oh yeah why didn’t i actually notice that
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yeah thank you thanks amanda um
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right so i i wanted to ask a little bit more about um binaries
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um so i did point out um some of them but there are you know lots of them that
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run through the exhibition like sporty and bookish stickers and erasers older young male
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female earl man accessible academic
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fun serious and so maybe maybe you can talk a little
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bit about um your maybe playfulness of of binaries because
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you know you’re you’re kind of constantly like creating them i think in your work just
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to kind of make them absurd and knock them down yeah exactly
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that that is really true i i think i i often invoke binaries it just to kind
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of stand there as something that i can push over um
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but also that the more we name like when you read that the list like um i think gosh they’re just really
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silly um but what’s what seems silly about binaries is the idea that something could only be either or
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because clearly that is false um and i i keep using the word clearly when
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i’m speaking um so that’s uh yeah that here
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okay anyway um
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what i mean is uh mine i think feel like binaries are just
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one of the ways that humans human thought tends to work um i don’t
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think they’re necessarily negative um i think that some kinds of um
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dichotomies can be really useful for opening up thought um but that that
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they’re not useful and become really bad when they they trap your thought like in
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in a pattern of either or but i think when we’re thinking about like related pairs of concepts um it can it could be
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really useful to think of things that are a thing that is as far away as you can
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imagine from the other thing um that does seem like it’s quote unquote opposite um
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because in thinking that far um it kind of stretches um
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the and creates a bit like conceptual space in the middle um where
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like yeah it just it seems to open things up um and so i like
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i like playing in that weird middle space and invoking both when i need to
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defense yeah tyler also says in the chat winning and
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losing as another binary which i think is interesting maybe i’m just like i’m
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just tabulating i’m just scoring binaries here by adding them all up
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well that that’s a really interesting impulse i love it
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and i need to know here um i i you mentioned accessible and academic as one binary i did
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that is a really cheeky binary um but i
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i don’t know whether that necessarily is a binary but it i mean in effect it it can be um
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in some ways um because i do talk about i mean when i talk about the exhibition i talk about it being
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fun and overtly fun and using it’s like fun and playfulness as a tool to like
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sneak in to trojan horse in like other kind of harder concepts
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but yeah that’s it that’s an unfinite that’s a binary that it would take a long time to unpack um
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but i did this is one that i would love to think more about
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um
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yeah well i just noticed in the chat uh someone said that amanda said a weird middle space is the charm of lenticulars
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and yes i that is exactly how i feel as well yeah it’s that blending
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definitely um yes i wanted to ask you about
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nostalgia um so i mean i guess my kind of
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understanding of nostalgia and my kind of definition of it is this
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sort of fluid kind of nuanced emotion i suppose that is
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both positive and and negative and you know there’s it’s kind of like a complex sort of thing
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um and so one of the things that i i thought of recently about your work is
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if you kind of think nostalgia is possibly like the anti-binary or you
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know maybe you’re kind of using this as a concept just because of its kind of fluidity um or maybe you could just
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expand on what your interest in nostalgia is and how you came to this as your methodology
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that’s a great question um okay well when i think about nostalgia i think
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okay well one of the uh like original uses of nostalgia um and i’m sorry if
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there are any historians in the crowd and i’m getting this wrong but um i think the word um first emerged um like
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around around world war one and um thinking about the the very very young
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like teenage soldiers who were going off um to war and
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the doctors needed some sort of word to describe the intense yearning that was
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causing like like resulting in like actual physical maladies and trauma aside from
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aside from the war that was happening um that too but um the intense like
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yearning for home um and it was was framed originally as a
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as an illness as like a psychological problem um and it wasn’t until
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more recently that it took on kind of any positive resonance um
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and i i do i feel like it it isn’t inherently bad but i think
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nostalgia is very much not about the past but it’s about um the
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present i think it’s about needing to remember something because
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something is happening in the present that that needs that needs that needs help
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with thinking about it well i’m reading it okay i’m gonna check
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i’m not gonna pay attention to chat right now yeah um
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yeah i don’t i don’t necessarily think of nostalgia as being
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anti-binary but i do think um
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that finis tells you that this show um attempts to to use as its kind of
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raw material and archive is very specific um it’s really it’s it’s really
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um dependent on essentially the nostalgia that one would have if you grew up um
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in like the 80s and early 90s um like in the
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midwestern united states um in like a middle-class family um as a white person
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so that nostalgia and like the nostalgia that i have is not necessarily
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like universal and i don’t imagine it to be universal um but i imagine it
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um as being very specific to um the conditions i was living in
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um but i hope i hope that it’s in its specificity that
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it becomes it kind of opens up and people can imagine themselves into it because it’s so specific
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i don’t know if that makes sense yeah but i think i also i think that the
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just like the material um someone like someone in the chat who said this um the material of lenticulars
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lends itself um to to um
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to exploring binaries but also to um nostalgia
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because of how as a material it kind of has been its use is really cyclical and i think
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that it is like a nostalgic material um because it had a haiti like in the 1980s
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uh and then like it’ll come come back um like every 15 or 20 years um and there’s a dip and
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you won’t see it as often and then oh like people will remember and usually it’s positive memories of it um and so
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i feel like every every decade or so it has a as a day
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oh i just was gonna say and then it it references like the material itself references not only um
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like not only the content but the materially um
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all of its previous iterations um like froggy
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so that’s all i wanted to say about that um yeah i think maybe to talk a little bit more about
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materiality of the work um most of your work a lot of your work is
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made out of um and plastic materials and i know this
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is something that you have considered quite a lot um i wonder if you wanted to just talk a
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little bit about maybe that kind of aspect of of the work
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it is um i feel like um a few years ago
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i i made kind of a conceptual commitment or a a rule if you
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want to call it that of um a helpful boundary for my practice um that um the
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work that i was going to make um going forward was going to primarily use plastic as a material um and that’s
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and i i know plastic is okay it’s so many things um and i
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absolutely love plastic um not only for um its like
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color uh and its malleability and um the trashy stuff that it gets used for um
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but also like for conceptual reasons um i actually think my attitude towards
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plastic is that it is too beautiful and precious to be used for stuff that you don’t take seriously uh
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i think it it definitely should be used as an art material because it essentially in some some types of it
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like essentially lasts forever because it doesn’t go away and it doesn’t break down um
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and it is if you want to get really theoretical about it what is that what is plastic
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actually made of like things from the past liquid liquid
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dinosaurs um kind of um like if you think about what petroleum
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actually is um yeah plastic is it’s around for forever and it in that
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way it is kind of like a fluid history and lots of people have theorized plastic um
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and like plasticity in general um and transness together um
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but i do what it comes down to is i just
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love colorful little things i just love it
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i just find it extremely compelling um the things that i can do with plastic well i really appreciate um
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your kind of reframing of plastic and its preciousness um and really kind of
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thinking of it as you know of course we’ve all been sold
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this idea that it’s you know disposable and one-time use only uh and i think
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there’s something really lovely about you kind of turning that and saying no actually it’s not
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and that there is like a preciousness to it um and your kind of consideration of its
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lasting let’s say forever uh i think is really
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really interesting yeah no it was uh it was actually i was
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making portraits um a few years ago i was making portraits out of pervert beads um which are made of plastic um
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they are a children another children’s toy um and i was just beginning to think about
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using plastic as a material and what it meant to make portraits out of plastic specifically um and it was something
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that got brought up by uh by a student in a workshop that i did um like this
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who was saying like she was saying she was really moved by the fact that the portrait of the person that she was making um was probably going to last
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for ages for like forever essentially um and i really loved the
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that with the statement that it was making that whatever portrait that i was making or whatever idea that i was
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embodying in inside this plastic object um it was as if i was making a statement
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that this this like deserves to be around for a long time
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yeah it is not going to go away yeah it’s not going to decompose
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but yeah anyway um
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yeah i have i guess i i i’m interested about
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the kind of influence of photography on memory
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um and i was wondering if maybe you could you know talk a little bit about
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photography’s influence on knowing the self and maybe a little bit of the kind of
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your experience of looking at those photos and maybe
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you know projecting sometimes onto them of what was going on and and kind of the
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there may be blending between what you remember
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from that time and what was kind of influenced by maybe your like projection onto the photos that is a that’s a
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fantastic question also um okay holy cow okay
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well i’m embarrassed to say this but i’ll
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just tell the truth um um it was when i was um
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kind of compulsively uh okay i have in my basement a whole bunch of boxes of uh
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of stuff i already said in the video that i was a keeper well that is really true and um i keep all sorts of things
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including um well i’m not a hoarder but like i have boxes of childhood paperwork um i’ve got
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like probably six or eight of them that i’ve been carrying around with me um since i was 17 or 18 and moved out of
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my parents house um uh it’s notebooks and journals and general ephemera and
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old assignments that i did and that kind of thing and i was pretty sure that eventually it would come in handy
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this this show it’s really kind of validating for that be kind of behavior but that’s an aside
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anyway i need to think about whether or not i still want to carry that around but
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talking about memory um i i found the photos again um because i had
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like i am asked them and i put them all in one place because they were in and amongst all of this other stuff um
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and i also found other photographs um that i considered using but
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when i i had the idea really for quite a long
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time that i should actually use lenticulars to make um portraits of like
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before and after um whether or not i believed that i was at a state where i could be
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considered after uh or if i even like that as an idea that there will be an after um i’m kind
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of skeptical of that in general right i would hope that i continue to change um
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as i grow older and become someone new and different amazing and amazing
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constantly but going back to it um
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yeah i know they do really
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even though in like school portraits they’re they’re kind of the same like
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they’re all relatively uniform and they’re made produced in a way to enable uniformity and
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certainly like they’re in my school year books there would be like a grid of tiny little thumbnails and you would
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see everyone but there was a lot visible in that tiny little grid um
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yeah you can get a lot from not very much information or the
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information that still remains even when everything else um
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becomes becomes uniform
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i don’t know
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i think that’s all okay i want to say about memory
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um yeah does does anybody
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have any more questions that they want to put in the chat for us
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uh kim is talking about nostalgia they’re saying i was thinking about this
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as its older association with homesickness homesickness has always been where this fascinated me because
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well it usually is taken to refer to a longing for a distant past home i feel
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like it can also refer to being sick of home however one might want
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that’s that is really interesting oh yeah being sick of home
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that seems like a potentially that seems like something that one could definitely think
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alongside transness
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was i sick of home this is getting psychoanalytic i always do
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i think i have it of the way i talk about my work um yeah
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i’m looking through chat and i’m trying to find exactly where
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where the com oh there it is i see the comment oh
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yeah homesickness was actually i think what i think i’m kind of thing that i was referring to
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can one feel homesick for a gender that is a really good question yeah what does it mean to have yeah and what does it
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mean to be nostalgic for something that you never experienced um that is
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that question of nostalgia for something that you don’t actually have first-hand
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knowledge of is i think a a larger and a larger question that my
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work my whole practice um kind of engages with in a way um
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certain certainly in the history of it um i have done i have used nostalgia in
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in quite a few ways over the years um and uh i am certainly guilty of
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second-hand nostalgia i don’t know if that is the word for it
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or i have been yeah i think i think that’s where kind of projection comes in so uh kind of like
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imagination of ourselves into someone else in another time
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um yeah i guess as we’re kind of wrapping up was there anything else you wanted to
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add about the show or your practice in general or if you have upcoming projects that you
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want us to check out i don’t think
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oh i don’t i don’t think so
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i don’t think i need to say anything else um i love i love the conversation that has
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been happening and i can i’m keeping up with it with half an eye um
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but only half an eye i hope it’s welcome to read it afterwards
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yeah we will definitely uh we do share we will share the chat with you afterwards you can take your time that’s
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wonderful because there’s stuff happening in chat like i see people making comments that i really wish
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i honestly i took a few screenshots because it’s important that i i get all the ideas
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um yeah so thanks for yeah spending this time with me and
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thanks everybody else for spending this time with us uh and be sure to come see the show
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yeah it’s it’s it’s always so nice to to talk to you lindsay um
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and and chat with you um i feel like our conversations are always
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interesting and generative yeah thank you so much i i always i’ve
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i’ve really honestly like loved putting this exhibition together and it makes me sad that it’s already up
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we’ll have to do more yeah it was good absolutely it was such a good experience
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yeah so uh well thank you all so much um and good night
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thank you bye
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